Are you a man or a mystical idiot?

Ok, thought that'd get your attention. But really, I've been contemplating such things lately. It seems that people have difficulty recognizing someone as a human being. Somehow, they must be more than that in order to show guidance or wisdom. I have a few friends that think worlds about one man. Now, I've only met him once, but I was not impressed. He considers himself a leader, as he is head of his own legal church. In that way, he is a leader. He started it up; he brought people together that feel like-minded about said church. And, they are a family. Wonderful thought there. I was impressed at how much people wanted me to meet him. I figured it was a good way to network in the Pagan community. He is one of the most well known in our little community and in our small part of the map, so I figured "what the hell, I'll meet him."

Well, apparently I did something wrong and he didn't feel comfortable around me. I knew someone that he was very...turned off by. I wasn't even friends with this person, and he flat out became angry at the mention of her name. This was the first time I met him, and it was outside a public circle during a smoke break (air break for me, cause I don't smoke). Even before this moment of friction came about, I wasn't thinking of him as some warm fatherly sort that lead people through the mysteries. He was just a man. Now I thought less of him. I was hoping that he would show some sort of welcoming personality to this public circle that I hadn't attended before. No. He didn't. He was just a man, afraid of losing his privacy through gossip, as many a' Pagan like to do. So, I don't know how well he does at guiding others. However, I do know that what others are seeing isn't the whole of him. I believe that people are blinded by what they want to see. He is their leader, their priest. Therefore, blind loyalty is attached.

That is a problem I've noticed in even my own experience. Blind loyalty. It's not just in Pagan circles. After discussing this with the great Sequoia tree known as my boyfriend, he mentioned that true leaders don't call themselves leaders. They just lead and everyone knows what they are. If you have to say you're a leader for others to know you are one, then you really aren't. But... that's not the case with him exactly. He leads. Others follow. I think he can become a great leader, but he's not there yet. I think he needs some humility and less followers. Less people saying "Oh, you're wonderful! You are my soul's goal!" Being told you know basically everything is an ego-boost away from knowledge. It clouds. And when you're clouded, you stop asking why.

So, is he a man or a mystical idiot? Well, I'd like to say we're all idiots at one time or another. So Yes. And yes. I hope he finds his path well, but I hope that those who follow his path know that theirs isn't the same thing. We are all alone there. It's just the way things are. OK, enough rambling. Tootles!

Yes...I said tootles.