There are a lot of things you can care about. You care for your pets. You care about your mother's feelings. You care about how you get to work on Monday. Sometimes, you have to put a stop as to what you care about, or you'll go mad. At least you'll start taking on guilt that is coming only from you and is not in any way warranted.
I find it easy to start guilting myself into such things. "Oh, you wrote and sent that essay to Witchvox in the middle of the night. It can't be any good...oh no...they're posting it...damn it! I shoulda done that when I was awake!" I'm just not going to care. Today I made a decision to not care about that. As an avid worrywort, I grab onto such things. Now, I'm less of one these days than in years past. That is a good step in the right direction. A friend of mine reminded me that "Worry is negative prayer"-Le. So, I'm going to just do what I can to live and get through things, thrive, and try to get out better on the other end. That's all I can do, and if I don't make it. I don't make it. If I can't make Carolina Spirit Quest, I'll just have to go next year. (although it is looking quite fun with drumming and such..anyway) Life goes on.
I don't know what'll happen when I have kids. I have a feeling my worrywortness will return like the plague. But, I digress. Just remember the past doesn't exist and the future doesn't exist. They are only ideas that can hinder or hurt you on your walk. So, good luck not worrying. It'll lower your blood pressure I'm sure. Life is lighter when you let go.
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